Write 31 Days: Being Me: Dear Younger Me

Dear Younger Me, I'm not sure where to start? This letter is not meant to shame or condemn. The mistakes you will make have made you me.   I don't necessarily want to take away any hurt or pain because that's how you learn. I do want to tell you, younger me, to love God and love people. God gave you life, dear one. Jesus sacrificed himself so that you could live. You are not meant to be perfect. Only He is. Show Him the love and respect he deserves. Ask for forgiveness. Be kind and … [Read more...]

Write 31 Days: Being Me: School

My palms are sweaty and my knees are weak. The butterflies had taken over my belly as I got up in front of the classroom to deliver my speech. The subject was "Delta Pride" - why was I proud to live in this region. I was a wreck. My shaky hands held my notecards as I gave my well-prepared speech. And honestly, I can't even tell you what I said or what my speech was about. But I won. My teacher told me later a few weeks later that mine was the best speech in the seventh grade and I've been … [Read more...]

Write 31 Days: Being Me: Forgiveness

Forgiveness is one of the hardest things to do. Yet, we are called to forgive because God forgave us. It's still hard. After all we are human and we are messed up. Being a stepmom and showing forgiveness your husband's ex is at the top of the list of hard things to do. She probably is hurting or angering your husband on a regular basis and making life difficult. You might even feel like she is selfish and not putting your stepchild first. She might make you mad and you might want to say mean … [Read more...]

Write 31 Days: Being Me: Busy

When people ask me how I am doing or what’s new or how I’ve been, my answer is almost always the same: busy. I’m busy trying to make everything around me go smoothly. Trying to take charge of my life and my family because I’m scared something will get messed up. I’m actually afraid I will mess it up. I feel weak and unimportant not at all mighty. Do you feel like that too? Remember God is Mighty to save. Isn’t that the best news? I don’t have to be mighty because I belong to a God who is … [Read more...]

Write 31 Days: Being Me: Mistakes

Mom: The horses got out. Do you know anything about it? Me: No. What happened? Mom: Someone left the gate unlatched. Are you sure you didn't have anything to do with it? Weren't you the last one through? Me: I was but I latched it. Honest. I didn't latch the gate. I was eleven years old and scared to admit I made I poor choice. My mom knew what I did. She wanted to believe me but she knew I made a mistake and was now lying about it. I had to admit I was wrong. I apologized for my … [Read more...]

Write 31 Days: Being Me: Life changing

I can think of so many moments that could be considered life-changing. How do you choose just one? Studying abroad? Meeting my husband? Being a stepmom? Deciding to go back to church? Giving birth? So many moments - good and bad - have made me who I am today. But if I had to pick one and choose the most impactful life-changing moment it would be choosing to follow Jesus. I can't remember exactly when but at some point after becoming a stepmom a desire started growing in me to know God … [Read more...]

Write 31 Days: Being Me: Childhood part two

If you did not experience childhood in the early 80s let me enlighten you. In 1984 there was a phenomenon among the preschool set known as Rainbow Brite. She was a girl who rode a horse on a rainbow. Need I say more?? I was one of these preschoolers smitten with Rainbow Brite. On the playground, we would pretend to be her and her pals. There was one boy in our group and a gaggle of girls. (Side note: the said boy was my "boyfriend." He walked across the classroom one day and said: "wanna be … [Read more...]

Write 31 Days: Being Me: Traditions

Picture this: Thirty people crammed into the kitchen, living room and game room, spilling out onto the deck. Everyone is yelling to be heard because everyone is talking at once. I love traditions. I am thankful for my family and this wild bunch who gather every fourth Thursday in November because they are Thanksgiving to me. The kids are running through the house, pushing people out of the way, laughing out loud. The moms are in the kitchen making rolls and gravy, checking on the turkey. The … [Read more...]

Write 31 Days: Being Me: Childhood

When I was in preschool and Elementary school my mom had an in-home daycare. You could say I was a self-appointed assistant director at my mom's daycare. I would enforce rules and direct games. Some people may have called me a bossy child because of this. I choose to think of it as developing leadership skills during my childhood. True leadership skills were developed in middle and high school through 4-H. Go ahead. Laugh. Picture me in boots and spurs as an awkward teen. I was in many … [Read more...]

Write 31 Days: Being Me: Most memorable moment

Five days past my due date with my first bio-kid, I was still working. I wasn't having any contractions yet so I figured why not. The plan was to work the rest of the week because I knew this baby was coming in a week one way or another. (The doctor would induce in a week if the baby didn't come on its own.) That day, I was on a conference call for work about our annual budget before heading to the doctor for my weekly check-up. I was feeling frustrated. Work was frustrating in general and … [Read more...]